Wow! Two and a half years! I can not believe I let my site go this long without an update. With MySpace and Facebook becoming the "It" ways of the Internet I kind of forgot this site even existed. But with the projects I have going on it is much easier to promote one thing through outside mediums rather than post everything on Facebook, then post everything again on MySpace. Not only that, but with all the projects I had going on I had writers block and a huge case of burn out.
But here I am! To quickly update you on my happenings I am currently filming a horror movie. I dont watch them, but it has been fun to film one! Its called "Zombiefied."
In a nutshell, 13 years ago a band put out a song on a tape with a hidden curse that turned people into flesh-eating zombies. Introverted Tommy and the beautiful Angel figured out that reversing the song reverses the cure. Unfortunately, a serial killer somehow got a copy of the song. It is now that he decides to unleash its fury at the show of popular bands Kill Order and Morgue City. As the members of Kill Order fight to survive and save their friends and fans, Angel and Tommy struggle with facing their worse nightmare head on. I play Alana, the lead singer of Kill Order.
My role has been brutal on my body and honestly it has been a blast! I have numerous fight scenes and I did get hurt a lot. But it will all be worth it in the end. I can not wait for all of you to see it! In the mean time, go to the PRESS section of the Web site to see the news coverage and movie footage, and visit the PICS page to see some photos from the movie. I do have new songs on the soundtrack so be on the look out for those.
In the mean time stay tuned for more music videos! Next week I will FINALLY post the music video I made for "Never Got to Say Goodbye" that I never released with personal footage of the Aggie Bonfire. I think on the 10-year anniversary of the collapse is finally a good time to release it, even though I wrote the song 10 years ago. I am also working on videos for some of the songs from "Let the Drama Begin."
Thank you for sticking around and reminding me that I LOVE doing this. I think that for three years I truly lost my focus and just couldn’t get my life together. I had no creative energy because every ounce of my life was being swallowed by outside forces. But now I am back focusing on what is truly important in my life and what I love to do. My life has honestly never been better. Still have my incredible husband, my no-longer stagnant career, my four adorable kitties, a wonderful family, a beautiful house and a kickass group of friends who have inspired me now more than ever to be creative and open. I am blessed in so many ways that I had been missing for so long.
I AM ready to kick some ass! The question now is: are you ready for me?
Feb. 5, 2007
Been a While
First off, I must say that watching the Colts win the
Superbowl was an EXCELLENT way to start this month and this year's
first journal entry. For those of you who know me well you know
football is a huge part of my life and the Colts have been my
favorite team for 9 years. Saints didn't quite get there, but
there's always next year. I'm enjoying every second of the Colts
victory and Peyton Manning's MVP. Just the greatest feeling.
I hadn't written in a while just
because I had no good news to share. I found out a good friend of
mine Joshua Cooper died in a car accident in August and since then
things have been a little difficult. First because no one in his
family in Beaumont knew to contact us, so all of his friends in
Houston found out months later. It's been hard to swallow that we
didn't really get to say goodbye, but we know why it happened that
way. We went to visit him at the cemetery, but all that's there is
sand. His headstone isn't up yet.
I
met Joshua Miles Cooper at Texas A&M University in the Fall of 1996.
Somehow or another I accidentally received an email that was from
him to another girl named Rebecca and I politely replied to say he
had the wrong girl. Since then we struck a cool friendship online,
and later I met him at a Taco Cabana. I can probably describe Josh
in four phrases: he LOVED cars, he knew just about ANYTHING about
computers, was a HUGE flirt and was absolutely HYSTERICAL! I swear
the guy was so smart he could do just about anything. He knew
exactly what program to use for whatever I needed, where to buy it
and how to use it to its fullest potential. I swear I don't think he
ever slept. "Call To Fly" looked amazing thanks to all his knowledge
of the programs we needed to get. He was surprised his name was in
the credits as Technical Advisor, but it was the LEAST we could do!
He was so surprised we did that.
Josh was a constant visitor at our apartment. He'd
call us at random and come over, bearing gifts of new tricks we
could use with our programs and Dewar's (scotch whiskey). He always
had to have a Dewar's and Coke (sometimes Sprite) wherever we went.
So much so that when Todd and I saw billboards for Dewar's we called
Josh. When Todd and I were thinking of buying the house back in
August we'd even discussed that Josh would finally have his own room
when he came to visit. We think this was the last thing we ever told
him. Our rule around our group of friends was to make sure Josh
started drinking first, because after a while he'd be buzzed enough
to take out his credit card and pay for the night's activities. He
had a good job and didn't mind sharing with us.
He always came for my annual Superbowl
party. Without fail the announcers would say something he could make
fun of. He definitely was a witty character. One of his favorite
targets around me was John Madden. The day John Madden, or MOO as
Josh called him (Master Of the Obvious), talked about the Denver
Broncos and their brand new shiny blue pants Josh just about lost
it. He couldn't believe a football legend was on Monday Night
Football talking about shiny blue pants. And then when Madden
circled the goal posts to show where the kicker had to kick the
ball, man that was priceless. It's hard to describe because it's one
of those you had to be there moments, but I'm happy I got to be
there.
Josh had two loves . . . a Stealth he
had recently purchased from Ebay (yes, a brave guy who bought a car
off of Ebay for $6K) and the Acura CL. Before his death he was
talking about the cars and how he was saving up for parts for them
and what his plans were. Ironic that he died in a car accident. I
saw the Stealth and heard its motor, but wasn't brave enough to get
in. I let Todd ride. Needless to say they went to Spec's to get
Dewar's.
He was traveling home from his work on
the afternoon of Aug. 10, 2006. It was a rainy day. Approaching the
Clay/Eldridge intersection Josh's Acura hydroplaned into oncoming
traffic and he was broadsided by a van on the driver's side. He died
instantly. He was 33.
The people that knew Josh through me always
noticed that even when he was having a hard time he always added
humor to it. He could be telling me the most tragic story and then
he'd bounce back and make me smile. Regardless of how bad things got
he was always a fighter and eventually found a way to laugh through
it all. He and I went through thin, thick and thicker and it will be
hard for me to not email trilight.com (his Web site and handle) and
get his opinion on something or send him a joke. Funny enough he
listened to tracks from "Let the Drama Begin" and I actually had
Todd remix the vocals on the title track because of one of Josh's
comments. His opinion always mattered to me even when he said he
wasn't an expert. As I'm writing this I'm sitting on the futon he
crashed on so many times 'cause I didn't want him driving home late
and tired after he and Todd watched movies and played on the
computer.
This sucks. For me, for Todd, for his family and
friends. We're all going to miss Josh's sense of humor, his
knowledge and his experiences. But most of all I'm sad for the
people that didn't get to meet him, because they missed getting to
know a fascinating person. I'm in a lot of pain, but even if I could
go back 10 years and delete the email as junk rather than replying
to save me pain I wouldn't. I'd still reply. 'Cause I would not have
wanted to miss Josh.
One thing . . . Josh did say he wanted to repay me
for sticking by him through the hard times he had . . . can't help
wondering if 9 years of watching me suffer through seeing the Colts
lose during the playoffs and me crying . . . is it possible Josh
pulled some heavenly strings? I'll always wonder.
Sept. 17, 2006
No Place Like the
Apartment
Well, at last minute the house thing
fell through. I hear this happens sometimes. I'm sad, but I guess I
still have the apartment for now. Fortunately football season has
begun and I have a nice distraction for a while. Hopefully the
Indianapolis Colts will make it all the way this year, even if my
Superbowl party ends up being at the apartment it'll still be
memorable.
And maybe by then the new album will be out. I'm happy to
announce it is finally all tracked and mix and mastering is almost
done! I think the album will be out just in time for Jason's
daughter to be born. But I'm sure he'll be excited even if he can't
play shows with us for a while. After all, family comes first and
we're all very excited for him and Nicole.
Sept. 14, 2006
I Hate Myself For Loving
You
Midnight gettin' uptight Where are
you
You said you'd meet me now it's quarter to two
I know I'm hangin' but I'm still wantin' you
Hey Jack It's a fact they're talkin' in town
I turn my back and you're messin' around
I'm not really jealous don't like lookin' like a clown
I think of you ev'ry night and day
You took my heart then you took my pride away
I hate myself for loving you
Can't break free from the the things that you do
I wanna walk but I run back to you that's why
I hate myself for loving you
Daylight spent the night without you
But I've been dreamin' 'bout the lovin' you do
I won't be as angry 'bout the hell you put me through
Hey man betcha you can treat me right
You just don?t know what you was missin? last night
I wanna see you beggin, say forget it just for spite
I hate myself for loving you
Can't break free from the the things that you do
I wanna walk but I run back to you, that's why
I hate myself for loving you
I hate myself for loving you
Can't break free from the things that you do
I wanna walk but I run back to you that's why
I hate myself for loving you
I think of you ev'ry night and day
You took my heart then you took my pride away
I hate myself for loving you
Can't break free from the the things that you do
I wanna walk but I run back to you that's why
I hate myself for loving you
I hate myself for loving you
I hate myself for loving you
- Joan Jett
